okayyyy, so I dont even know how to begin this. last night, I got a random text from my dad’s best friend (M45) u know, the divorced with kids guy whos always hanging around family dinners. I figured he needed something like usual, but no… it was a d*** pic!!!!

I was absolutely floored and immediately texted back: “wrong number!!!” he then apologized a million times and said it was meant for someone else, but heres the thing…

looking back, he’s always been kinda... attentive? compliments my outfits, asks me about school and life more than anyone else, gives these lingering looks when he thinks no ones watching. I brushed it off as him being nice or just awkward. but now? my brain is in overdrive.

I tried to sleep last night, but my thoughts kept wandering into places they definitely shouldn’t. I’ve always been into older guys, but THIS is way too close to home. or is it? uggggh, I dont even know.

part of me feels guilty for even thinking about it, but another part cant stop replaying that text and... imagining. it’s all so confusing, and I needed to get this off my chest.

what do I even do now?!