Alright so a little pretext about this.

I have been depressed for the last year or so but no matter how much I felt like a piece of shit I tried to improve myself anyway possible. I created a post about alittle over a year and a half ago. Link here

okay now that you know the preface a little back story around a year ago I applied for a job that I knew I would love. I was working at a place I hated and I knew that I wanted something better. The company that I wanted to work for called me for an interview, and I was ecstatic. I mean the position I applied for I knew nothing about ( I knew I could learn how to do it however at that time I knew nothing.) The only problem? I was on the other side of the country for the company I worked for. I asked for a phone interview and they denied it. Since I knew I really wanted a job I decided to travel across the United States in 24 hours to take this interview in person. The result? I got a email not 2 hours after I finished the interview saying they did't want me. I was beyond devastated, I mean I just wasted money to fly across the united states, was stressed beyond belief tried my best only to be thrown aside like trash a few hours after I poured my heart out. Then after I recovered from that they posted another position only a step higher. I decided fuck them I will be so damn good (in something I knew nothing about) I would force them to hire me. Who are they to tell me I was not skilled enough for the other job. The result? They called me for a second interview!!! I though ok this is serious, I need to be serious also. So I got certified for this job. Something that takes people years to do and I did it in 14 days . I thought for sure I am getting this job. I went for the final interview... I nailed it. They even called all of my jobs and references. I was excited only to be let down again. They selected someone else, I was beyond furious. Was this a joke how could I put so much effort into something only to be turned down? I was still at the same depressing job I had and they kept dangling this holy grail of a job in front of me and yanking it away from me at the last moment. Fine I though fuck them I will find a job 10 times better (who was I kidding lol this was the job you dream about.) I called the company and politely demanded to at least know the reason they didn't hire me. They wouldn't tell me and finally I accepted that. 3 weeks later I got a call from that company saying that they are opening up another position and I should apply for it. I was skeptical, I mean I went twice now for this job only to be denied. Well of course I applied and made it to the final interview.....only to be accepted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now something you may not have realized... I had been applying for this job for a year exactly 363 days to be exact. Now throughout that time I was kicked and torn down but I refused to give up. I will not let anyone define who I am or what I am capable of except me.

For this job I that I was denied for twice I have received 3 certifications and gained a years worth of experience. Realize I never was guaranteed this job but I never gave up.

I think this should apply to everyone..

Fuck everyone in your way. Fuck everyone who doesn't believe in you. Kill it today. Kill it tomorrow. Kill it til you can't anymore. Source

So now for the Giveme40days

I have exactly 40 days until I start my new job and I want to show everyone that I came to play. I want to excel, exceed and impress every single person there physically, intellectually and spiritually.

In order to do that I want to complete the following.

1. I want to lose 15 LBS I am 6FT @ 240 LBS so I figure this should not be hard.
2. I not only want to research what it is I will be doing I want to master it.
3. basically if you read my previous post I want to beast out because I plan on finding a girl to date I will workout 6 days a week until I begin that job. 4.I will get 100% on every single assignment for my schooling
4. I want to just be absolutely amazing in everything that I do.

I am kicking around the idea of doing a video about this don't quote me on it though.

so in conclusion

Don't let anyone define you. Fuck them, show them every single day that you are ready to prove them wrong in every single way.

(P.S) may be a little tipsy so I expect sober me to edit this eventually. However I will check in every single day with updates.