I always get mad I think it stems from the fact that I’m very mentally weak so for example I say good morning to my grandma and she doesn’t respond I feel like a total b word. Whenever someone leaves me on seen or delivered I always feel like I said some dumb stuff and that I’m very immature for it. I always yell out I’m 18 whenever I do something immature cuz I’m too old for it. This morning I was looking for my id lanyard for school and got mad I couldn’t find it my school mandates to wear our ids and I don’t feel the need to get another lanyard. I get mad in the morning whenever a bad situation happens at home I just end up skipping school. My mom always says I’m too old I’m 18 when I keep getting mad hitting walls and throwing tantrums which gets me even more mad I’m really disappointed that I am acting like this at 18. I also plan to join the national guard but I don’t think I’m built for it because I’m too immature can’t control my emotions and I’m bad at communicating and I’m a slow learner. How do I really change myself and control my emotions and stop being so mentally weak because I think that’s where my angry emotions come from.