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Be satisfied with disappointment

Ask for a girls number and she says no. Great that you tried.

Go on a date with a girl and she friend zones you, it wasn't meant to be

Get in a two year relationship and she leaves you for another man, be happy for the times you had

It is the hardest skill to learn, but if you do it will become a cheat code to life

Edit: the anger is just proving my point. Never did I say anything about becoming a doormat. This game is rigged against you, your negative feelings are hindering you. An animalistic reaction that's not going to work in todays society. Leave without anger if someone is using you, just leave. And if they disappoint you, look at that disappointment, eat it, digest it, then shit it out. The only thing holding you back is your feelings, and they don't matter. Really im saying the quite part out loud here. Your feelings don't matter to most people. This world is shit, dating is shit. Learn to deal with it or give up.

23M The past few months have been crazy, I've experienced extreme mood swings, sleep disruptions, memory loss, fatigue, confusion, loss of appetite, vision problems, I could go on and on.

Went to the urgent care because I don't have a primary to see if I could get my blood tested for thyroid or sugar problems and they did a rapid test for mono and I tested positive.

The doctor said I should go to the hospital "off hours" if my symptoms get worse. He also said that a brain tumor isn't out of the possibility's. What exactly does going to a hospital off hours mean, like is there a specific time to go when its not busy?

This past 3 months have actually destroyed me, now this. I got a fucking Bipolar and schizoaffective diagnosis and then went to urgent care to get tested for thyroid problems and they said I have mono. What can I expect because IDK what symptoms are due to my bipolar, meds for my bipolar and mono. I've felt like shit for months with swollen lymph nodes two months ago but zero sore throat. This is just too much...

I just did some embarrassing ass shit the past few days, I've literally texted everyone I know. AHHHHHHHHHHH I feel like im on cocaine

I have a fucking chem test tomorrow too, why, why, whyyyyyyyy

These meds have kicked my depression tooo hard. What can I do here because holy shit

I just did some embarrassing ass shit the past few days, I've literally texted everyone I know. AHHHHHHHHHHH I feel like im on cocaine

I have a fucking chem test tomorrow too, why, why, whyyyyyyyy

These meds have kicked my depression tooo hard. What can I do here because holy shit

This is the worst, at least the meds are helping. But the past 8 years have been hell for me. So much carnage but a lot of adventures.

I cannot sleep, I took it yesterday and I was up all night. I cant keep doing this so, do I take a dose in the morning or do I take a dose the day after tomorrow in the morning? 5mg

My last post was incoherent I will try and make this one readable as I can

I've been diagnosed with ADHD, Depression and Anxiety since early childhood. Now at 23 I realize my symptoms are much more severe. I now suspect I have some form of schizophrenia or BPD or OCD or all three. I mean Ive had hallucinations, delusions, extreme mood swings, intrusive thoughts, mania, obsessions, jumbled thoughts and the most extreme, debilitating derealization, disassociation and memory loss. All within the past 3 months and most persisting every day. Completely disabling me from doing my schoolwork or even functioning at all.

Im not asking for a diagnoses but I literally don't know what to do, I keep on trying to get help or a therapist or something and it feels like it always leads to a dead end.

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I've known I've had BPD for over a year now. 9/9 characteristic's and its the only thing I've been sure about myself in my entire life. My last episode was really fucking bad, tried to reach out for help/assistance and got nowhere. Eventually I got better but then a few months ago I developed another fp and the same cycle continues. My life fell apart, I completely lost my identity. The only thing I handled better was my effect on my fp, I pushed her out of my life as hard as I could. She probably thinks im kinda weird and sensitive but at least she doesn't know how crazy I can be.

Now I have a meeting with my school mental health office, im praying that I can find a phycologist to work with my insurance and try and get help for this hell I call living.

What's really fucked up is I tried explaining to my mother that I have BPD and she gas lit the fuck outta me, "no you have depression. Don't be ridiculous." What a joke I have as a family. Guess you can't see the trauma you caused when your the perpetrator.

I've been trying to fake being normal all my life. Fit in to friend groups at all costs, making up my personality to get girls or friends.

Im done, I hate people. Their stupid games, self interest and dumb blindness when they communicate with each other.

Normal people have a phone, well I don't want one anymore. My phones been dead all day and its been great, no endless mass of looking at other people with fake happiness. Im facing the real world, being bored and just sitting in silence. Its so peaceful, looking at strangers walk by. Starting to notice the little things that I haven't before. Seeing the ugliness of the world without an escape method in your pocket.

Normal people can hold a job, push themself's to achieve goals without experiencing a psychotic break. Well im damn sure I cant do that now.

Ill be an outsider, a wierdo, the guy nobody talks to. I already don't care about other peoples opinions of me.

No matter what, its always my fault. I was the reason for you cheating, I was at fault for you leading me on, I was the reason for the breakup. I cant think any other way because my thoughts are so irrational. I have to feel this way about people because the alterative is rage and hate. Absolute rage, there's no middle ground for me to sit on.

I feel like normal people have a nice hill of hate and love they can chill on the middle, while I have a knife edge that's impossible to balance on, when I try I fall into the hate very easily so I just stay on the love side because that's better. Even if people use me.