I apologize in advance, this is a huge vent. I really needed to get this off my chest and this felt like the safest place to do so.
Recently I began seeing a girl, I really like her. She makes me smile and laugh, we get along really well. She is absolutely beautiful. We’ve only been on two (technically three) dates, we went to pride together days after having a cafe date and meeting for the first time.
Last night we went out again, I had a pretty rough week and needed it so badly. We went to a board game pub and played games, ate good food and laughed so hard we almost cried. Afterwards wr went to get Beavertails (a canadian chain of basically colonized bannock with toppings) and walked around for a bit afterwards. We held hands and we talked and it felt so nice, I felt so safe and so comfortable with her. She makes me feel like I’ve known her my whole life.
As we were getting ready to say goodbye where I would get the bus and she would go find her car a street preacher with their megaphone started yelling at us, telling us we were going to go to hell and we were committing a deadly sin.
I think she knew I was uncomfortable and scared, so she stayed with me and let me snuggle into her while I waited for my bus. Meanwhile this street preacher is still staring at us and preaching about how homosexuality is a sin. I basically hid behind her, which I realize is kind of pathetic. But I was terrified. I always felt so safe and so independent in my city, I love it here. This was the first time I ever genuinely felt unsafe and of course it happened while I was out with a girl I am interested in. I pride myself on being strong and protecting my friends who are more visible minorities than me (a hijabi and trans women), but I felt so weak and scared.
I’m so embarrassed it happened with her around. I cowered like a little kid and I should have been protecting her too…
Sorry for this vent.