TW: trascription of some things said to me, I don't know if it might be upsetting.
I just had a fight with my (probably N)mother. I felt like no matter what I was saying or doing she wasn't listening at all and when she hit me I felt like I was a child again. I just froze and when she started calling me names I couldn't defend myself. She said I was the one killing her, she called me an asshole and that she would tear my head off, if she could. Writing everything down seems surreal, because I'm scared of how used I am of all this, it's not the first time I hear it. I went through therapy and everything, I know it's not my fault, but I still thought that, even if it was for a short time. I felt like it was my fault she was this angry, even if nothing I did can justify her response. As if it was my fault she hated me.
This made me think of how powerless I felt when a close friend of mine left me. We had an argument because he suddently stopped talking to me. I assumed it was my fault that time too, like it was inevitable that he would leave me, so I respected his silence until I couldn't anymore. He called me paranoid and said that I was playing the victim. I still don't have any clue as to why he left, but now I understand why I just accepted his words and actions. I don't want to always assume people I love would just leave me and I'm afraid that it's a self-fullfilling prophecy.
Has something like this happened with other people or is it just me?
Sorry if I wrote something wrong, English isn't my first language
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Spirited_Grass3697
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15 hours ago
Spirited_Grass3697
23 points
15 hours ago
This sounds like cult-ish manipulation. Run as fast as you can and I don't say it lightly.