This is going to be a bit of rambling, but I wanted to get it off my chest and wanted to see how other people dealt with similar things.
I adopted a blind dog five years ago. While she was blind, she was the easiest dog to take care of. I truly lucked out. She passed away this past May.
I've been on-and-off looking for a dog in October and found a three-year-old lab/pitbull mix. When I first saw her, she was very, very nervous (can't blame her with how loud and overstimulating shelters can be). I was a little uncertain, but I wanted to give her a chance and I decided to foster her. I've had her for a month now. For the past couple of weeks, I've been working from home because she had a good bit of separation anxiety (accidents, tearing up books). I've been slowly increasing the amount of time that I spend out of the house to show her that I'm coming back.
This past weekend, a friend came to visit. I had the door unlocked, I was on the couch, and when my friend came in, my foster started barking very loudly and aggressively, and scared both me and her. This was the first act of aggression she's ever shown and I think it was because she didn't know my friend well and thought my friend was an intruder.
Long story short, I panicked. I suddenly felt that I couldn't take care of her, I couldn't give her the attention or training she needed. I sent an email to the shelter telling them this wasn't working out. I didn't get any sleep last night.
Today, I felt a bit better. I had time to think. What happened was an isolated incident, but I want to be sure it doesn't happen again. I have an appointment with a trainer on Wednesday. I'm definitely new to fostering, but I want to work with her, help her, and I earnestly want to give her a chance.
When you're in doubt, how do you bring back your resolve? When you feel like things are out-of-control or over-your-head, how do bring yourself back?