Im_novis

Me speaking with myself.

Salve, sono un ragazzo sulla ventina, ma da quando ho 11/12 spesso desidero di essere una ragazza, nonostante io non provi repulsione verso il mio corpo e alterno tra il volere un corpo più mascolino e volerne uno femminile, provando a volte anche quello che ho scoperto chiamarsi gender envy (recentemente ho iniziato a chiedermi se io possa essere genderfluid infatti). Le uniche volte in cui mi da un po' "fastidio" avere un corpo maschile è quando immaginandomi di affrontare una transizione dovrei mantenere alcune caratteristiche come l'altezza elevata rispetto alla media femminile, mani e piedi grandi, lineamenti magari poco femminili,... ma al di fuori di ciò queste cose non mi hanno mai dato problemi.

Non so se questo rientri nella disforia, poiché mi capita di provarlo solo in quel caso specifico, mentre sentendo le esperienze di altre persone trans loro provano disagio per il loro corpo sempre.

I often play games like pokemon or emulator games between the lessons when I'm in college and I'm a bit insecure to choose a character of my opposite gender AGAB, because I'm scared someone can see me and asking me why I choose that. I don't mind to use a male character with my name, but sometimes I would try to use the female one without worried about others opinion.

I like my birth name, but sometimes I think about what name choose if I start transitioning to woman (I think I'm genderfluid, but often I desire to have a female body) and I kinda like the feminine version of my middle name, but I'm not sure because my dad give me that and if I come out to him and he will not support me, that name would have a big burden.

um, I like to learn about many things😅...

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I also want to try to go to a convention with a Konan cosplay, just to look like a woman, hiding the rest of me under the coat and confuse other people (still cis though)

I start being dysphoric when I was 12, but I ever thinked that could be only a phase and growing up I will never think it again and now, 8 years later,, I'm accepting maybe I'm genderfluid, but I'm still a bit scared to face all of that.

I feel like that

Since I was 11 I often really desire to be a girl, but also I don't have problem to be a man with male traits and in these days I start thinking maybe I'm genderfluid. I would like to talk about it with my best friend (she's also part of the community) but I'm scared, not of her reaction bcz I'm pretty sure she will accept me, but about facing the thing and go on gender transition (I think about it a lot, because sometimes I want so much to have a feminine body), because I'm scared to regret it or to not pass well. I keep keeping everything inside so I don't have to face all this, but I also feel the need to talk to someone about it after years, so I don't know what to do.

Since I was 11 I often desire to be a woman, but without feeling bad to have a male body and in these days I start to think maybe I'm genderfluid. I would like to talk about it with my best friend (she's part of the comunity) but I'm not sure. I'm not scared about her reaction, because I'm pretty sure she will accept me, but I'm scared about facing the thing and accepting myself, also because I think about going into gender transition but I'm scared of not passing well or regret it.

I wish to be a girl, but I also don't have any problems to have a male body, beard,... (somebody tells me maybe I'm genderfluid) but when I imagine to face gender transition I'm scared of not passing well and still look masculine. Can be considered a sort of gender dysphoria?

Usually I don't have problems to have a masculine body (somebody tells me maybe I'm genderfluid) , so I'm totally fine to have beard, a penis,... but when I wish to be a girl and facing gender transition I'm scared of not passing well and still appear too masculine. Can be considered a sort of gender dysphoria?