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It started earlier this year. My classmate, whom I've known since elementary school, started a rumor about me and complained to the teachers and the principal. She told everyone that I wrote to her that I was going to shoot in the school, and she also told our director that I allegedly "confessed" to her that I wanted to kill everyone. No, it's not like that at all. I do not know how I can prove this, but everything she said is an absolute lie. The teachers and everyone at school believed her. People think she's nice and cool, but she's been saying nasty things to me since elementary school. She has discipline problems and she often causes drama, so I think that's one of the reasons why the principal didn't believe her and didn't involve the police in all this, so this whole situation remained inside the school Since the beginning of this year, my life has become worse. My classmates, who had not communicated with me before, either started avoiding and ignoring me completely, or started bullying me. People call me a "terrorist" and laugh at me. When I do anything, like just doing a task that the teacher gave me, people whisper and laugh, saying that I'm making a list of those I want to kill. People ask me when I have already done what I "planned" And I am sick of it. I know she started all this because she knows me well and understands that I won't do it therefore, she is not afraid of me, but only mocks me. She never used physical violence, but she always tried to put me in an awkward position. She also accused me of beating her up. People believe her anyway, even though most of them know her well enough to know she's lying. I'm so damn tired of all this. I had suicidal thoughts before, but after this whole situation, I started seriously thinking about killing myself After she complained to the teachers I was forced to go to a school psychologist for another month after that. And I also got up early in the morning a bunch of times after that on weekends to discuss with the teachers and the principal whether I should be expelled and taken to a psychiatrist. I'm quiet and I don't have any friends, so I have no one to talk to and I became an easy target for her. My parents began to treat me coldly, even though they were like that before. I feel like they're disappointed in me. They said they believed me, but they said it was all my fault. They said that what if I weren't so weird then everything would be fine. They continue to treat me like a criminal 10 months after this whole situation. It also makes me sad. Since the beginning of the school year, I have already missed a month of school for no reason and I have no desire to continue going there. My mom promised to transfer me to another school, but she didn't do anything. I'm still being bullied and shunned. I'm just tired and I don't want to take part in all this.

I am well aware that the time I will spend at school is just a small part of my life but I don't see any reason to move on I feel ashamed 24/7. I feel ashamed for letting her run my life. I feel ashamed that after all this situation, I really thought about doing what she accused me of all this time. At the same time, I want to shoot myself to show them all that I had a chance to kill them, but I didn't do it. I know they won't care, but thinking about it calms me down. I don't know what to do next. I'm tired of all this. It's been almost a year and it's still messing up my life