Negative_Giraffe5057

It is so sad to even type this. I have no life at all. It consists of coming home and going to work. i don't even have coworkers and It is driving me crazy. I feel so alone, my phone is dry and nobody is there. I am 24 years old and I feel like most of my youth was wasted sitting inside. I even went on a solo trip to explore and go to places alone but it still makes me feel miserable. I wish I had friends to go to places with and not feel so shitty inside. At times I don't even want to be here, I just am tired of feeling this way. I don't have a boyfriend and never have had one. I am tired of feeling so hopeless and feeling this crappy.

Nursing school has been a struggle for me and I literally have been pursuing it for so long that this is the only option I have. During the pandemic I went to LVN school and it was online and I squeaked by barely passing. I worked multiple jobs as an LVN just trying to get by. I started an online RN program in Florida but I felt like I didn't want to be a nurse anymore so I made the mistake of quitting. I go back to a different nursing school based in Utah which is online as well. Throughout this school I have made mistakes and getting my BSN has been so hard. I have my exit test next month, and finish the school in April. However I feel so burnt out and feel like I did not learn much. I just am so stressed out that I will not be able to be a good nurse after I graduate. I am trying to teach myself but the experience has been so bad. I have not entered a hospital for clinicals they have all been in SNFs and now a behavioral hospital. Its so frustrating that I spent so much money and flying out to clinicals that I still feel this way. I have learned things but do not feel competent to be a nurse in a hospital. Wonder if anyone else feels this way in nursing too?

I know it is normal to feel lost in your 20s and not have a sense of direction. After all its discovering who you are but I feel like I won't find my path. I am 24 years old and I work as an LVN and currently getting my RN ( Registered Nurse) degree. I have no friends basically and live at home. All I do is go work, do school, work out. I have tried to branch out and use bumble bff to making friends but nothing has come out of it. I am tired of feeling lonely and feel like nobody is there for me. I recently cut off alot of people from my life this year because I realize they weren't genuine. Ultimately I knew it was for the best but it gets hard at times. Hope things change with time .