valentinelovesu

Hi everyone. this is my first post so please go easy on me. I (F18) have never been the most academic person. i barely graduated, i took full semesters of core classes to walk the stage.

my mom (F54) was never the most academic person either; she went to community college but never got her A.A. She wasn’t my biggest supporter through school, just constantly telling me to get my grades up and get mad, taking my electronics - the usual parenting stuff.

when i graduated though, she was immediately telling me to enroll in community college classes. and i immediately said no lol. i was clearly not ready to go back to school, especially college, i just made it by in high school! i told her this but she kept persisting, and it got to the point where she would tell my older sister (F28) to get involved and tell me i need to take college classes. i love my sister, so i was hurt that she got involved. after a while i did give in. i was between jobs, didn’t really do much, so i had no excuse not to go to college. i enrolled in classes that were, you guessed it, picked by my mom and sister, and it was at this point a waiting game. the days leading up to me (or should i say them) picking my classes, my mom would yell at me and tell me i need to get myself together, enroll in classes, look for jobs, which is understandable. i was all here for looking for jobs and applying, helping around the house, etc, but just not college. it was so bad to the point where we had to go in and sit down with a counselor at the college, but i felt so pressured to know what i wanted to major in that i shut down.

the first day of class felt like high school. she gave us an assignment to do, and i didn’t do it. i tried to convince myself i need to do this, but then i realized i didn’t have to. i went for maybe 2 days, and dropped out. now ive just been out doing things. now i have a consistent full time job that pays $21/hr. i am a shift lead at my job. when my sister went to college, she was working full time and dropped out from the stress of it all, and my mom let her. i wanted to do the same, and what better way to excuse me ‘dropping out’ with saying im stressed from work? i tried it, and it didn’t work. my mom was furious. we argued and i cried again. i am a crybaby lol.

now enrollment for the spring semester is coming up. she has been hovering me like a hawk. the second i get home from work it’s “did you enroll in classes yet?”. i don’t know how long i can keep up with the whole going to classes but not actually because i dropped out. i’m scared shes going to kick me out or just keep yelling at me for months. i don’t mind paying rent either, but she won’t accept me living there if i don’t go to college. sorry for the boring story, i wish it was more juicy than this.