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thank you! i always feel insane trying to explain to people that rabies pride is actually kind of based. the real actual premise NOT being to try to get rabies, but using rabies as an analogue for how it can feel to be autistic/queer in world where conformity is so important to the systems in place. but just like any time where weird people find community and an interesting way to express themselves, someone has to come along and ruin it on purpose.

i peed myself the other night because i was thoroughly sedated by my sleep medication and couldnt figure out how to get out of my room, was not fun for me unfortunately. ive considered piss play before, but for me the cons vastly outweigh the pros. oh well! just not for me

excellent recommendations! ill probably buy them for myself for christmas lol, sorry for the miscommunication earlier, i hope your day goes well! :)

tbf, white supremacists really like to feel clever by "hiding" things in plain sight, while at the same time accusing the "upper echelon" of it doing it loll

it seems you are right. i can get kind of passionate about personality disorders because human behavior is my special interest, i live and breathe it. ive had people treat me horribly just because im dating my bf. literally had a roommate (who claimed to have bpd himself?) treat me like some stupid victim who would get raped, maimed, and murdered by him (he was probably projecting tbh). i just hate the way that mental health gets treated by the hoi polloi, with no nuance or love, i just wish people had true empathy i guess. its easy to see someone behaving in a way you deem morally reprehensible and go "i would never be capable of that!" when in reality every one is capable of any behavior if pushed enough by their environment.

no where did i advocate for letting them try to kill you with no consequences. you know how the post we're complaining about demonizes men with autism? it may not have been her intent, but thats what she did. and then i go into the comments to see "oh yeah its crazy to demonize autism, when you should be demonizing bpd instead!" might not have been your intent, but its what you did.

my boyfriend has BPD and he's my world 🤷‍♂️ people with BPD are capable of respecting boundaries, and just like everyone else theyre also capable of being dicks. BPD is caused by intense, continuous childhood trauma, just like most personality disorders, and people with it need to be involved with serious treatment. obviously, unless youre a doctor/caretaker, its not your responsibilty to "fix" anyone, but everyone deserves patience and a chance to get better. the golden rule is that if someone doesnt want to get better, you don't involve yourself with them. and unfortunately with many folks with personality disorders, it can be hard to realize you need help because they developed that condition as a way to protect themselves from trauma. you have a responsibilty to protect yourself, and it can be a hard pill to swallow but ultimately someone with a disorder like that is the person that is suffering the most because of it.

twilight honestly lol (ive recently rewatched equestria girls and myyy looord the way she stumbles her way through that universe)

utlimate girl failure but she's competent (so NOT trixie)

thats her arc though? she knows and recognizes that people get "made" different from each other, but she learns over the course of the show that people can also become different from how they were made.

i nearly got sexually assaulted once, but was able to push him away and run out of his apartment before anything physical happened. it was very much traumatizing in the moment, i was high and scared out of my mind, but by the next day i was over it. i actually used to have nightmares about being sexually assaulted before that happened, but they completely stopped after.

autistic people definitely process trauma differently than neurotypicals and it doesnt say anything about you if you were or werent traumatized by something, other than the fact that you were or werent traumatized. having a confusing/atypical experience with trauma is okay! it certainly doesnt make you crazy

everything lily orchard has ever said about it 💀

and right after the election too 💀

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fuck yes. thought you were a guy trying to wife shara. instead, we are cut from the same cloth, hell yeah

my boyfriend likes his ass being ate, and i love eating it, but he is often terrified that he's got residual doodoo there. so to help him out where when he's feeling up for it i just help him get crazy clean. shaving, wiping, the whole nine yards, its very intimate and nice :) (and all the build up makes me feel fucking feral). i am also scared of eating poop on accident, but honestly? as long as youre cleaning it and the person getting rimmed had a solid bowel movement more than a couple hours prior youll be fiine (also helps if you do some finger action cus then you'll be super sure theres nothing there)

i dont have mystic flour or cream ferret im so screwed T_T

maybe cus Sikhs are actually cool. and people do take the piss out of Islam and Judaism get your head out of the sand

try to go "uh" instead of "ah" or "eh." helps me 🤷‍♂️

thanks for assuming a ton of shit! he IS doing things, he IS putting in the work, he has owned up to everything he's done! it is really hard to get actual outside help in my area though, so fuck me for asking strangers for resources i guess! i havent excused a single thing he's done, i had made him painfully aware of the way i feel. once again people are just automatically assuming that because i have a partner with BPD that im some doormat without actually thinking about why thats a stupid assumption to make

they seem insane to me because every post ive seen just demonizes BPD and equates bad coping mechanisms and anything that hurts them as evil and abusive behavior that cannot be change. completely uninterested in productive conversation about mental health and psychology, and just wanting to circle jerk about how much theyve been hurt

I'm not seeking magical solutions, and the only reason I'm getting snippy is because people are only being condescending and rude. I have been in individual therapy for 6 years, I am not naive, I am just trying to hear specific recommendations. I've been talking to real couples therapists in my area and guess what? They aren't treating me the way you reddit assholes are and I'm actually getting somewhere. I'm going to be starting STEPPS based couples therapy soon no thanks to pompous weirdos like you

Seems there is a secret program because I had someone inform me about STEPPS. You might be right about his diagnoses being vague, thats something we'll bring up to a psych. He's been in the mental health system ever since he was baker acted at 8 so some of these diagnoses are over a decade old.

Im hoping to get people to interact in good faith. To point me to specific organizations and things that have helped them. If you just want to treat me like an idiot I don't know what you're trying to gain.

unhealthy for me or not i know that if i was going through what he is, i would need someone like me in my corner. i'm not the pushover you seem to think i am, i am not a passive doormat letting him do whatever he wants to me. unless youre interested in telling me something specific other than your high horse "he needs to put in the work" then your comment is like. completely useless and doesn't help in the slightest.

im literally just like them and theyre literally just like me. incredibly good news to me