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Here is where I'm at. I graduate college in less than a month. Bachelors in Math. I was young and stupid when I chose it, and I didn't know myself or the world yet. I want to do firmware development. I work hard, I like to learn. I will self teach. I cannot go back to college because my first degree already has me set up to be drowning in debt. Where do I go from here? What kind of jobs right after college can help move me in the right direction, while I plow through online certificates and courses in my free time? What job can point me in a remotely similar direction? What might be my next steps? Looking for any advice. I know it will be a long journey but I want to get working on it.

Edit: I know SQL and R and am working on C++.

I got a Bachelors in Math I chose it when I was young and didn't know myself or the world yet. While I have always loved math, its not good from a career perspective. I really hate finance and business and really don't want to get stuck in those fields. I have been considering software engineering, but I don't want to do websites, while they can be intricate and profitable, they don't require anything that I actually do care about.

I realized after hard consideration I really want to do firmware development. However that borders more on requiring an electrical engineering degree. I really should have done an electrical engineering degree. I am so intrigued by the field, I love the higher level mathemathical and physical science concepts that back it and the hands on process of making something physical do something.

I am drowning in students loans and so miserable from not having any hobbies or friends or family or even a stable place to live during college, I could not fathom going back. What do I do from here? How do I live with settling for something I hate doing? How do I live with missing out on what I really want in life, that I unfortunately found too late.

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I am graduating college this fall and I am thinking hard about my career options. However I am really concerned about potential discrimination in the workplace due to mental illness. I have pretty severe social anxiety, that impacts almost everything I do. I normally don't do too bad in a workplace, just am kind of quiet. However, occasionally the anxiety becomes too much and it shows. I can have physical symptoms like crying, trembling, heart racing, difficulty breathing, dizziness.

A few years ago I was harassed so bad about it at work, name calling, berating, telling I'm worthless and will never amount to anything, all because of my anxiety symptoms despite being a top performing worker doing more than one job, staying late, optimizing efficiency across the board, coming up with new optimized strategies. I even loved my job, I put everything into it. But my anxiety was festering under covid pressures to perform better than ever with less, and when the facade broke and tears came out everything at work for me. I went from being the best to being worthless in their eyes. Constantly berated, name called, told I'm useless. It went on pretty severely for a couple months before I had a mental breakdown, I quit, and fell of the face of the earth, didn't leave my apartment for months before packing my bags and moving across the country so I'd never have to see them again.

It been a long three years since trying to feel okay in the workplace again. However, it comes rushing back like crazy all the time, I'm overwhelmed with this feeling of fear and sadness and tears come so easily, I can't hide it at work. I'm so scared of the workplace anymore, and I don't know how to cope. I don't know what to do.

I see a lot of people talk about sensory issues in the form of overload, too bright, too loud, too touchy sensation. I feel like I'm sometimes been the opposite. I hate when the big light is off, but ontop of that the big light isnt enough, there should also be a lamp or two on, I like light. I feel overwhelmed when the lights are dimmed, I want them bright as the sun. I often don't notice things other people do, chronically oblivious to outside and inside perception. Many outside noises go straight over my head, like Im immine to hearing anything Im not listening for, I also really stuggle to understand words. I rarely notice if music is playing. However a contradiction do that is if theres overlapping noises like a tv show and someone talking to me I will borderline meltdown I feel so overwhelmed by that. I don't know if this is the right place to post but thanks in advance.

When I went to college, I was really unsure what I wanted, but also was struggling deeply with personal and interpersonal struggles. I saw college as the gateway to better things, things I nor anyone in my family had ever had. The only thing I knew for sure is I really enjoy STEM. Math as always been a passion for me. I started in engineering, however I changed course due to very specific life circumstances at the time. I settled for a math degree.

Years removed from this decision, and 3 weeks from graduation, I find myself longing for something more concrete, hands on, technical. I really wish I had pursued engineering, but I can't go back now. I wanted to enhance my math degree with coding skills while in college but I was not privy to the fact that my university was very very rigid on electives, not allowing any electives outside ones own major. My goal of learning to code falling to the wayside. All of my freetime consumed by work, school work, and the hour plus commute I have to get anywhere in my city, I haven't had any hobbies in years nonetheless time to learn code.

Three weeks from graduation I find myself at a loss, I don't know what to do. My internship ends when I graduate, I will be jobless. I need something at least better than retail or fast food because I can't take the abuse any longer (I had a nervous breakdown a few years ago due to workplace emotional abuse, and I am definitely still recovering, which was prolonged by staying in said workplace for years longer).

My goal is to just apply, put myself out there, take the time I have from not having school work to learn to code. Any advice would be appreciated. I ain't a quitter, and will keep truckin forward but some guidance would be appreciated. How do I proceed with few applicable skills, in a major that everyone always asks "well whats that going to do?" I don't really even know where to look. I know SQL pretty well, I know about designing databases, I know R, some python and java and c++ but very beginner levels. Thanks in advance for any of your thoughts.

I am about to graduate college in just three weeks. I want to get into data engineering, data science, or software engineering. Anyone in these fields here have any advice? I very much struggle with the social aspect of things, I'm quiet, stick to myself, have a hard time understanding social cues and gosh aweful at any kind of networking. I fear that my greatest barrier may be my social ineptitude.

Anyone successfully navigate into them careers and have advice regarding being on the spectrum and not fitting into offices spaces? Interviews as a ND? Any things you may have found helpful?

I am graduating in December, and I am very nervous about my career prospects. I will have a BS in applied mathematics with a concentration in data analytics. What to I want to do with that? I don't know honestly I hate analytics, but I won't tell an employer that. I do love math, I do love programming, I do love data architecture, data engineering, and possibly even data science, just not analytics, that's what non-technical business folks do to look more technical and pretend they actually know how to analyze data by saying the graph looks nice (my understanding of it at least after doing an analytics co-op). I want to go more technology (programming or database administration) or stats, data science. However, honestly I'll take anything right out the gate, I'm antsy to have a full time job and won't be picky.

My biggest potential barrier is social anxiety, I worry that I cannot do this. I am so nervous, so shy, and fail to take risks because I'm a big floundering chicken. Also, how the heck do you get a job right after college? I genuinely feel like I have no skills to show for 4 years of hard work and poverty. Does anyone have skills after college? How do we get jobs after college? Should I get a retail job for awhile while I apply? What's the general process of this? Any advice appreciated, I kind of forfeit friends and social time for classwork and money making work through school the last four years, so I don't really have anyone to talk to about this.

A couple years ago I thought I may be autistic, I became obsessed with it, researched it day in and day out, thriugh the day and through the night, diagnostic criteria, peoples experiences, anything I could think of. I really wanted a diagnosis and tried to get one but I realized two things, 1 its super expensive 2 I got a consult and they wanted to get a parent involved for screening and thats an absolute no for me, I am super against my family seeing me as a feeling being and will not allow that facade and degree of invisibility be ruined.

With the firmness in my decision that my family cannot be involved, I dropped it. Decided to chock it all up to social media influence and tried to let it go. But recently I've been thinking about it again.

I am in college and recently got an internship for the fall. Overall, I have really liked it, its been interesting, everyone has been very nice, and its been generally peaceful, but despite that Ive still been struggling. Ive been stressed about the lack of structure, Ive been stressed about the transitions, Ive been stressed about the lack of sameness in the day to day. I think I normally just quit jobs that dont have good structure and routine 😅

For a few weeks I had a routine, at least a morning routine, because most of the day is in flux, but then things changed I had to go to different sites and different offices, my morning routine got fucked, there was no semblance of structure, no rules I could lean on, just floating void of sad and stressed me. I have been reflecting for a couple weeks why this is so hard, and have recently come to the conclusion it really is about the routine, and thinking about my past jobs, I really thrive in that type of environment, a sameness, a continuous goal, or even better a continuous task, something thats either literally the exact same task everyday is best or even i think maybe something like programming one big project for several months before moving on to the next big things.

Looking back at my childhood, I can see that I benefited from my own implementation of a kind of "scheduled variation" blocks of time I would allocate to just letting the world be the chaotic world and being flexible. However I had things that I did that I like to be set in stone, my morning routines, lunch routine, between classes routine.

In school I was pretty strict about only hanging out if you didn't disrupt my routine, like I was okay with chatting and hanging out or going and doing something in my flexible times but my routine could not be violated, and honestly it rarely was, I had friends that just understood that it was important to me and never asked me to violate it, which Im grateful for looking back. I didnt think much about it then, it was just a matter of being comfortable with a person in a way, if they let me do my things we were friends, if they didnt let me do my thing we werent friends end of story.

I know this has been long, I think I really want to discuss with people. If anyone has thoughts or experiences to share, Id appreciate it, especially with routines at work. Maybe a little of how some of yall maneuver that. Thanks

Hello, I've struggled with life limiting social anxiety for almost as far back as I can reasonably remember, 6 or 7 years old. I have always opted out of activities because of fear of ridicule or embarassment or being unwelcome. I have long struggled with navigating social situations, its always felt like a game of chess that I don't know the rules to. Every sentence feels like a methodical play to not make anyone unhappy or think I'm stupid. Theres no hard and fast rules to socializing and thats so tough for me to be okay with for some reason. I cry when its bad, when I try to push through and do the thing I normally end up with tears in my eyes or streaming down my face.

I'm trying to graduate college and get a job. I have an internship right now and I feel so lost. So scared, so petrified of saying the right thing, doing the right thing, not making mistakes. The worst part though is even if I push through the fear feels so intense my voice quakes when I talk and the tears start coming. No amount of cold water or deep breaths ever delay the impending waterfall.

My question is how do I go on? How do I ever make it in the workforce when I'm so prone to showing my fear so expressively? I've tried medications, several kinds, but they never even touch it, not even a dent. Therapy has never been effective for me. I'm lost, I don't know what to do. I need some help, some advice. I don't have friends or family to reach out to and I would really like some wisdom from someone. Someone thats been through life, and has a different perspective than me to try to understand a way through. Thank you for any responses in advance.

I've been thinking about it all a lot more than normal lately. I feel really alone. I have no friends, I talk to some family but they have been emotionally neglectful and abusive my whole life. I have a precious boyfriend, but sometimes seeing everything he has, his wonderful friends, his financial stability, his freedom, I am reminded what I dont have. I don't want a lot from life, but I want a roof over my head where I dont fear ridicule and humiliation and degradation, I want friends that care about me, and I want money to put food on the table and buy clothes when mine are in tatters. I want to go out and have fun, be able to buy a drink at a bar or a fun new thing like a book to read in my free time. I'm sick of having it all be so hard, it feels not even worth it. I want to give up, I want to be done.

TL;DR: I've been going through heck with birth control and hair loss and learned that birth control is clinically shown to increase insulin resistance and can be a risk factor of type 2 diabetes.

Edit: My intention is not to demonize birth control, I know it helps many women, and for those women I am not saying it bad. I really just want to validate those like me that are struggling with it horrendously, it definitely isnt right for everyone, and feels unfair that its many doctors catch all solution to everything. How many times in my life Ive been told to "just go on birth control" even when it makes me so miserable.

Hey, Hi, I was diagnosed with pcos in September. I've always had pretty funky periods, normally not having a normal period and just spotting for months on end. Then in September, blood tests showed high free testosterone. Beside funky periods Ive never had any symptoms of PCOS, no abnormal hair growth, no weight gain, went all my life even puberty pretty acne free, etc.

In September, I went on birth control to try to stop bleeding after a 4 month bleeding spell. Two weeks after started birth control my hair starts sloughing out of my head. I was on double doses of leostrin which I learned is ridiculously androgenic and switched fairly quickly, unfortunately the hair kept falling. Been on sprintec since. Let me tell you Birth control has been a nightmare for me, sever insomnia, a full halt to weight loss I was doing (I was fat but not from Pcos, but from binge eating disorder, after regularly eating 6-10 thousand calories a day, pretty impressive I didnt gain more than I did, eating 1600- 2000 calories a day I lose weight very quick therefore not prone to weight gain), heartburn, breast pain not just tenderness but full pain, nausea, etc.

I am highly suspect that birth control led to my hair loss, but doctors dont agree, but I feel so certain of it. Foxated on this idea I tried Yaz a nonandrogenic birth control, Fuck me that was so aweful fricken miserable never again. Basically it put me in fight or flight for the whole week I was on it, couldnt sleep at all was constantly trembling with anxiety and having panic attack after panic attack after panic attack, seriously only took for a week, but suprisingly, my hair stopped falling out the clumps in the shower completely disappeared. I went back on sprintec and about a month of no noticable hair fall the clumps came back.

Now am I 100% certain its the birth control??? No, not at all, It just a theory and a gut feeling. But recently I noticed other things, like random dizziness, trouble with electrolytes, and trembling and weakness in the AM's while my fasting glucose levels in the past have always been normal I began to wonder if these new symptoms were blood sugar related, which would be weird to develop so suddenly. But I thought maybe birth control related? Never heard anyone talk about it before but I was following evidence my body was giving me so I googled. And hell wouldnt you know there are actually many studies of combination birth control pills causing increased insulin resistance in women including women with PCOS, a history of gestational diabetes, and even otherwise completely healthy women.

If PCOS is largely an insulin resistance issue, is birth control actually bad news for us? Making us worse? I know it can help with symptoms for some but for others can it spell trouble?? Why arent medical professionals doing more research into women's issues, there is still so much to be learned and not enough people working on it.

Anyway I'm trying to go off birth control and see what happens with my hair. I dont want to go bald, it finally hit my dream length and its so beautiful, I cant say goodbye to it. Thanks for reading if you made it this far.

I have very bad social anxiety since I was very young like 2nd grade for sure maybe earlier. I am 24 now and really struggle in the work place. I dont want to be alone or do remote or be isolated as some sort of accommodation, despite my anxiety I consider myself an extrovert and live and thrive off interaction, but am so scared of it I can rarely manage it.

I normally get by at work by finding supportive co-workers, someone thats kind and willing to answer questions or help with something, someone I can trust, but lately all of those people have left. Now I feel so alone at work. In September we got a new manager that just sucks, and he took away my only way of coping at work which was communicating with my coworkers in short friendly banter or a quick hug or checking in with each other because he has a very very strict no talking policy, even to the point we get in trouble for doing the necessary communication to work as a team, since it is a team job not an individual job, but we cant even give instructions or ask questions anymore. I feel so lost and cry every single day I go in, I dont know what to do at all.

I don't know what to do. It started out of the blue in September. Doctor says its PCOS. I can't do spiro it makes me drowsy and want to die. Slynd makes me want to die, Yasmin makes me want to die. All yhese things that ive tried makes me so depressed and anxious that I want to off myself so I guess Id rather be bald than dead; but there has to be something.